June 19, 2012 § Leave a comment
Today I had a meltdown. Through disappointment, then the frustration and overwhelming sense of helplessness that has been in me for years, I lost my cool. In the course of maybe half an hour this happened – the events that caused these feelings. And any 3rd party would rightly say that I am overreacting tremendously. But there’s so much…. building up inside of me. I felt like cutting was the only thing I could control. So I cut myself. I’m feeling absolutely terrible. Pathetic, helpless, unworthy… just to start. What’s the fucking point… of anything.